For Today: August 14th

Envy is one form of a vice, partly moral, partly intellectual, which consists in seeing things never in themselves, but only in their relations.
Bertrand Russell

Looking at another's program and achievements is another way I have of putting myself down.  "Why can't you do better?  What's the matter with you? I wish I were......."  The OA program is not a competitive sport, nor is my Higher Power a referee.   With envy as a defect, I do not have to look far to find that I am making unreasonable demands on myself.

I know that what relieves me of the compulsion to overeat can also relieve me of other defects, I need only to practice the steps----all of them--------and turn my life over to my Higher Power on a daily basis.  I don't need to be perfect at any of this; I just need to be myself.

For Today:  To free myself of envy, I can start by looking to see how it is hurting me.

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When I compare myself to another woman, she will undoubtedly come out ahead........because she will be 6' tall and weigh 110 lbs soaking wet.  Me.........I will always be 5'5" and I will never weigh 110 lbs.  Envy is a character defect that hurts me enormously & working the 12 Steps helps me to eliminate it.

What's the point in making comparisons anyway? I am ME and as such, I am unique. I must learn to appreciate myself as I am, and work towards becoming who I WANT to be, rather than focusing on somebody else!

I must also recognize my positive traits & appreciate them TODAY, right NOW.  Because let me tell you, I will NEVER be PERFECT and my quest to BE perfect ended 38 months ago when I decided to take my life back.

For today, I will be grateful for who I am and for what I have accomplished in my life.  I will not compare myself to anyone else and I will perform the tasks ahead of me, one by one, without complaining or bemoaning my 'lot in life'.  My 'lot in life' is AWESOME and I am thankful FOR it!