For Today:  July 30^th

Nothing on earth consumes a man more quickly than the passion of resentment.

Friedrich Nietzche

I can experience resentment as a feeling, rather than have it consume me.  It is all right.  I am not acting it out---running, escaping, whirling into insanity.  I reach for the telephone, the Big Book, come face to face with a friend.  I am not alone, nor am I frightened.  Resentment is a feeling, not a deed.  I can experience much without wreaking havoc.  I can speak my thoughts, show my “bad side,” and God----and my fellow OAs---accept me without reservation.

For Today:  Thank God for the healing power of this program.

I’ve held a lot of resentments over the years.  I wound up acting out though,,,,,,like this reading says.,,,,,.,running, escaping, whirling into insanity. And overeating like there was no tomorrow.  I had a whole TON of excuses for why I “had to” overeat to comfort myself.  If so-and-so hadn’t done this-and-that to me, I wouldn’t be overeating! It is THEIR fault, not mine. Yada yada yada.

Holding onto resentment is like drinking poison and thinking it will kill your enemies. 

The only person that’s harmed by resentment is ME. If I ask God to show me someone’s innocence rather than his guilt, I am better able to look at him in a forgiving light.  

The best thing I can do for myself is learn to forgive; no matter what ‘crime’ someone has committed against me, real or imagined, I will be so much better off letting it go. 

OA has given me plenty of tools to use to help me get out of my OWN head and share myself with others. If I reach out and ask for help, it will come.  If I sit around feeling sorry for myself & harboring all sorts of resentments, I am taking steps BACKWARD instead of forward. And….I will probably lose myself in a bowl of junk food because of it.

For today, I pray to bathe everyone I meet in God’s loving light; to accept them without judgment or negativity, and to let go of any resentments I may be holding onto.