For Today: July 31st

The heart has such an influence over the understanding that it is worthwhile to engage it in our interest.

Lord Chesterfield

If logic were the dominant influence in human behavior, who would be a compulsive overeater, or an alcoholic or an excessive, obsessed anything?  Emotional problems cannot be reasoned away or resolved by scientific method.  Logic is wasted on nameless fears that appear to have no basis in reality.  I feel what I feel, not what my head says I “ought” to feel.  My persistence in trying to control my emotions through reasonableness ends in dismay and frustration.

In OA, I am learning to look deeper, to the language of the heart.

For Today: Prayer is not logical, and yet it works.  Where rational intelligence fails, I place my faith in a source of help that is beyond my understanding and know that I will receive what I need.

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Amen to this reading.

Prayer is not 'logical'......in fact, in our society, it's not so 'logical' to believe in God or in a power greater than ourselves.  We think WE are the power.

Ha.

Relying on myself has brought me to the depths of despair, over & over again.  Only when I began relying on a power greater than myself was I able to get into recovery & discover a better way.

I've always prided myself on being a sensible person. Yet, why was I unable to talk some sense to mySELF and figure out this whole food addiction thing?

Because there IS no sense to addiction; no logic on earth can talk me out of an emotional crisis I feel carried away by.

When I put my faith in God is when I feel at peace & not overwhelmed by the desire to eat my feelings away or stuff them back with excess.  When I pray is when I feel relieved of my emotional difficulties & able to carry on with the tasks ahead of me, one at a time, one day at a time.  Sometimes, one hour at a time.