For Today: April 29th

For Today: April 29^th

And do not say, regarding anything, “I am going to do that tomorrow,” but only, “if God will.”

The Koran

It is not easy to put down that insistent self-will. Am I not the captain of my soul, the master of my fate? Yes, certainly; that is one view of it. I “captained” myself right into an obsession with food that wrecked most of my hopes and plans.

Having surrendered that obsession to God, I became free to live as I had hoped and dreamed. That is what “God’s will, not mine” means to me. God’s will frees me from my self-destructive willfulness; it takes nothing good away from me.

For Today: I gladly seek God’s will for me, in place of that blind self-will which can so easily lead me to the brink of disaster.

This particular reading always makes me laugh….”Captained myself right into an obsession with food.” That says it all!

I like to say that When I Was In Charge of the World……nothing worked properly! I had corralled all of my attempts at Perfection into a gigantic heap of half-finished projects, cluttered closets, and an overwhelming sense of Imperfection. 

Compulsive overeating is self-will gone berserk…..another OAism that makes me chuckle. I have to laugh at myself and my misguided attempts to control everybody & everything.  Nowadays, I can let go & let God and be frankly RELIEVED to do so! 

Besides, everything in my life works out SO much better when I do that! God is a lot better at directing my life than I am, that’s for SURE!

For today, I will make no plans for tomorrow. I will take tomorrow as it comes & know that the outcome of the day is in God’s hands.

For today, I will keep in mind that I’m a fatalist. Man plans & God laughs. So what’s the point in planning out my life anyway;, strategizing it, charting graphing and spelling it all out?  God is in charge & I’m eager to see what tomorrow brings!