For Today: April 23rd

For Today: April 23^rd

Grief drives men into habits of serious reflection, sharpens the understanding and softens the heart.

John Adams

If I allow it to pass through my life without trying to change it or escape from it, grief will leave me a more finished person. The problem is non-acceptance. My compulsive overeating mind says, “No! No! I can’t bear it. Change it! Fix it! Make it better.” Round I go, giving myself no peace until, finally, I stand still and let myself feel the pain.

Accepting whatever comes---the sorrow as well as the joy----without letting it divert me from doing God’s will as I understand it, is what this program is all about. It is recovery.

For Today: I can learn much that is of value from grief by not running away into the food.

               

.Psalm 66:10 For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver.

The only way out of pain is through it. Without suffering the pains of grief and coming out the other side, how would I have gained enough wisdom to be able to live in the moment, in the NOW? 

In some ways, I am grateful for my disease of addiction. Without it, I wouldn’t be the person I am today; happy, joyous & free. It took the ravages of addiction to bring me to my knees, begging God to show me a better way. And He did, all I had to do was ask.

Until I became willing to feel pain, I had to control the world. My mind raced like a rat on a wheel, going back & forth with the ‘should I, shouldn’t I’ questions about what to eat.  To say that I had ‘no peace’ is a gross understatement.

By allowing myself to live by God’s will as I understand it, I have released myself from the prison of addiction & found a whole new way of life. That way is called Recovery.

As precious as gold is the state of Recovery & I will not risk it for any piece of food or drink on earth, one day at a time. I thank God for giving me the ability to recognize and appreciate what it feels like to live free from the chains of addiction.