For Today: April 4th

For Today: April 4^th

To know and yet think we do not know is the highest attainment. Not to know and yet think we do know is a disease.

Lao-tzu

In the days before I came to Overeaters Anonymous, when I was responsible for running the world, it was unthinkable to admit I didn’t have the answers for everything. The three least used words in my vocabulary were “I don’t know.”

What a relief to leave the job of directing the universe to God. With my disease of food addiction arrested one day at a time, I have the courage and humility to say, “I don’t know.”

For Today: May I have the wisdom to remain teachable.

When I was responsible for running the world……why did I ever think it was my job to do that??

As a compulsive overeater, I know I have control freak issues.  The ‘my way or the highway’ attitude. I work on this daily…..trying to remember that my way is not necessarily the way.  

I have to practice a new statement: I don’t know.

Sometimes I can say that without reservation, especially if someone is discussing a subject I’m unfamiliar with, such as world politics or computer jibberish.  But, if someone is discussing weight loss or subject matter that involves Opinions, I can be brutally outspoken. 

What is the point of ‘being right’? Where is the glory in that? Why would I even seek such glory? That is obviously a character defect *self-righteous pride?* that I need to work on in Step 4.  Identify it, admit it, write it down, then ask God to rid me of it.

For today, I pray to be relieved of the burden of running the world….I pray to recognize the fact that it is NOT my job to DO that; it is God’s job.