No Ultimate "Ah"
When we were overeating, we sought an ultimate experience of satisfaction from food. No matter what kind of food we ate, or how much, we never found that moment of satisfaction, that ultimate "ah." It was always just ahead, in the next bite.
Have we finally realized that the ultimate "ah" which we looked for in food does not exist? No matter what we eat, or how much, it will always elude us. Whatever we are looking for--happiness, success, peace, and fulfillment--it is not to be found in the refrigerator.
We do not promise that working the OA program will bring instant gratification or constant happiness. What we do know is that through the Twelve Steps we are given positive experiences which we did not have before OA. We are happier, more successful, more at peace, and more fulfilled than we ever were before we found this program.
By realizing that food holds no ultimate "ah," we can stop destroying ourselves by chasing a rainbow which does not exist.
May I stop searching for happiness where it is not to be found.
When we were overeating, we sought an ultimate experience of satisfaction from food. No matter what kind of food we ate, or how much, we never found that moment of satisfaction, that ultimate "ah." It was always just ahead, in the next bite.
Have we finally realized that the ultimate "ah" which we looked for in food does not exist? No matter what we eat, or how much, it will always elude us. Whatever we are looking for--happiness, success, peace, and fulfillment--it is not to be found in the refrigerator.
We do not promise that working the OA program will bring instant gratification or constant happiness. What we do know is that through the Twelve Steps we are given positive experiences which we did not have before OA. We are happier, more successful, more at peace, and more fulfilled than we ever were before we found this program.
By realizing that food holds no ultimate "ah," we can stop destroying ourselves by chasing a rainbow which does not exist.
May I stop searching for happiness where it is not to be found.
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How true is this?! When I first decided to stop eating compulsively, what got me through the day was telling myself that no matter HOW much trigger food I ate, it would never be enough.........so why get started?
I can eat sugar all day long, literally, and STILL not have an ultimate "Ah", it always promises to be in the next bite, but never is.
What I AM looking for is freedom.........serenity, peace, happiness, success & fulfillment, which I can NEVER find in the refrigerator. I DO find those things through prayer and meditation, and in the readings & teachings of OA.
God can do for ME what I cannot do for MYSELF. When I surrender my powerlessness over food and commit to abstinence, that is when I feel ultimate satisfaction!
For today, I will stay true to my food plan, I will let go & let God, and I will not destroy myself or my spirit by chasing a rainbow that does not exist.
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