For Today: February 15th

Only God can fully know what absolute honesty is.  Therefore, each of us has to conceive what this great ideal may be-----to the best of our ability.

Bill W.

Truth is always the same; honesty changes with my awareness.  Honesty has many facets.  There is cash-register honesty, usually accompanied by making sure other people know about it.  There is let-me-tell-you-for-your-own-good honesty, which is hurtful, perhaps dominating.  There is one-sided honesty, which is a recitation of my spouse’s or lover’s or friend’s wrongdoings, sometimes dumped on a hapless OA meeting.

And there is self-honesty, which serves the purpose of keeping my life in order, and personal honesty, which is a sharing of feelings, experiences and strengths without egotism, self-pity or exaggeration.

For Today:  A fundamental principle of this program is to be as honest as possible with myself and everyone my life touches.

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When people ask my husband how I lost 100 lbs, he tells them, "She finally quit lying to herself." He's right, of course..........until I got honest with myself, I wasn't able to lose one single lb.

The truth is: I am a compulsive overeater..........a food addict (junk food to be precise). Once I get started eating sugary foods, I can't stop. I cannot handle trigger foods 'in moderation' so I have to abstain from eating them entirely.  That's the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

If I want to stay in recovery, I have to be honest with myself.  While I don't strive for 'perfection', I DO strive to stay compliant with my food plan every day.  A little extra here and there WILL lead me back down the road to compulsive overeating and obesity.  Unless I am honest with myself, I am doomed to repeat the same behaviors that have brought me to my knees (and to obesity) time and time and time again.

For today, I pray to be truthful and honest with myself and others. I pray to NOT bury my head in the sand while burying mySELF in excess food.  I pray to live a long life, and not have my body buried before its time.