For Today: January 30th

The best part of our lives we pass is counting on what is to come.

William Hazlitt

What a waste.  A life of expecting and waiting.  Was the event ever as good as the anticipation?  Seldom.  Disappointment gave me climate to complain, reason to brood---and to seek relief in food.

In OA,  I am in today----now, this minute----which is the only reality.  Yesterday is a memory, tomorrow is not here.  I will appreciate this minute for what it is.  I will be conscious of a life outside myself so I can hear its sounds, feel its warmth and coolness, know another’s presence.  Fear disappears, control vanishes, I let go and let God direct my life.

For Today:  In OA, I am regaining the capacity for simple enjoyment I once had: to explore, to accept, to trust and delight in present-moment pleasures as a child does.

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OA teaches me to live in the moment; yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet.  What's happened in the past needs to be relegated to the back of my mind and what's happening NOW is what I need to focus on.  Just because I've regained my lost weight in the past does NOT mean I have to regain it THIS time.

These days, I have a plan of action to follow and a toolbox full of tools to use when I'm feeling weak.  I have a support system in place, and all I need do is make a phone call or log onto my computer to find help when I need it. 

I am not alone with my disease, nor do I FEEL alone anymore.  God is directing my life now, and what a relief it is!

When I love mySELF as God loves me, I want to treat my body with kindness and not abuse it with excess.  i deserve to live a clean and sober lifestyle, and to enjoy every day as a gift.

For today, I will treat the day as a gift and I will enjoy it, one moment at a time.  When I face a difficult moment or situation, I will not turn to food for comfort or to ease my anxiety, but to God instead.  Food will never provide the comfort I seek, but God WILL.