For Today: February 27th
To persevere, trusting in what hopes one has, is courage. The coward despairs.
Euripides
There is a time for sadness and regrets, but it is one thing to mourn and quite another to refuse to go on. Before the program of OA I had no path to follow. There was no end of misery in sight. Today I have a way to go, people to be with, a sponsor to guide me. I may not feel like doing anything, but I know now that the answer is action, just as it was when I walked into my first meeting. God gives me the courage to trust, to take that first step, to reach out to a friend.
For Today: With abstinence, and the support of OA, I have the courage to live.
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This reading puts me in mind of that old saying, about Once you Learn Something, you can’t ‘unlearn’ it. For me, this is the case with OA & the 12 Steps. How can I ever go back to the way things once were, now that I KNOW there is a better path to follow? OA gives me a blueprint, a prescription for happiness, an answer to situations I once felt hopeless to get a handle on. I thought I’d ‘have to’ spend my life obese & bingeing. I felt like a coward indeed. I didn’t realize that restricting my food intake was Courage. Courage to LIVE! I thought a restricted food intake would make me miserable & sad, but instead, restricting my food intake has allowed me to feel Peace, Happiness & Courage, all at the same time! I now have the Courage to be ME; to accept myself without glossing over the truth. If I behave in a way that isn’t in line with God’s path for me, I can do 4th & 5th step work , ask God to remove me of the defect, make amends to those I have hurt by my actions, and move forward without guilt or feeling like a failure. I don’t have to hoard the guilt, or live with big secrets anymore….I have a solid plan to follow that allows me to live with Truth instead of Denial.
This reading puts me in mind of that old saying, about Once you Learn Something, you can’t ‘unlearn’ it. For me, this is the case with OA & the 12 Steps. How can I ever go back to the way things once were, now that I KNOW there is a better path to follow? OA gives me a blueprint, a prescription for happiness, an answer to situations I once felt hopeless to get a handle on. I thought I’d ‘have to’ spend my life obese & bingeing. I felt like a coward indeed. I didn’t realize that restricting my food intake was Courage. Courage to LIVE! I thought a restricted food intake would make me miserable & sad, but instead, restricting my food intake has allowed me to feel Peace, Happiness & Courage, all at the same time! I now have the Courage to be ME; to accept myself without glossing over the truth. If I behave in a way that isn’t in line with God’s path for me, I can do 4th & 5th step work , ask God to remove me of the defect, make amends to those I have hurt by my actions, and move forward without guilt or feeling like a failure. I don’t have to hoard the guilt, or live with big secrets anymore….I have a solid plan to follow that allows me to live with Truth instead of Denial.
For today, I am grateful to know the truth about myself, and still be able to love myself in spite of it!
For today, I pray that the fever of resentment, worry & fear may melt into nothingness. I pray that health, joy, peace & serenity may take its place.
For today, I pray that the fever of resentment, worry & fear may melt into nothingness. I pray that health, joy, peace & serenity may take its place.
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