For Today: May 26th

The lust for comfort, that stealthy thing that enters the house a guest, then becomes a host, and then a master.

Kahlil Gibran

Comfort was my middle name, until its obsessive pursuit turned it against me. Face to face with my distorted ideas, I decided to give up the immediate comfort of overeating for the long range comfort of feeling good about myself. I do not have to be a slave to anything; it is possible to find my security and comfort within. Aware of the temptation to escape into the illusive comfort of my old habits, I use everything this program gives me to stay in reality. The rewards of allowing myself to feel ALL of my feelings, the uncomfortable as well as the comfortable, far surpass what I once thought of as comfort.

For Today: The brief moments of comfort I got from eating unnecessary food made my life miserable. OA shows me a way to be comfortable within myself.

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AMEN to this reading!!!!

We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons." ~Jim Rohn

Why is it that I ‘don’t care’ about anything when I want to overeat? It’s so easy to say I Don’t Care when that certain off plan food is staring me down, or, when I’m staring IT down. 

In the end, self-discipline IS easier than battling the Should I/Shouldn’t I food questions.

Some days are harder than others though, that’s for sure. Some days I feel like I can do EVERYthing, and then other days, I feel like I can’t do ANYthing. 

Weight loss/maintenance is probably THE most difficult thing I’ve ever done in my life.

I have to accept the fact that every day isn’t going to be ‘easy’ or struggle-free. Some days downright SUCK.

Every time I get through a tough situation without over-indulging, I strengthen my commitment to long term weight management.

Every time I have a struggle, I think Oh You’re FINISHED. Through. You’ve blown it. You stink. You can’t do this. You’re doomed to get fat again.

Honestly, this journey isTOUGH.

But, every time I think it’s too hard to restrict my food intake & to stick to my scheduled Food Plan, I remember how tough it was to be 225 lbs & wearing a size 2x, and feeling ashamed of myself & miserable to the core of my being.

THAT was tough. THIS is easy by comparison.

So, for today, I will absorb Kahlil Gibran’s message into my soul & accept the fact that my lust for comfort is NOT a necessity. It constitutes behavior I no longer care to display.

So, for today, I will not display it!