Nothing gives rest but the sincere search for truth.
Blaise Pascal
There are many distractions to keep me from pursuing my search for truth: work, family, friends. But, inevitably, there comes a time of leisure, and I find myself restless, a little ill at ease. Is something bothering me? Why am I not comfortable without something to occupy me? I don’t know the answer, but I know what the program suggests. I may write some more of my inventory, call an OA friend, or just sit quietly, open my mind and let thoughts come to me. I invariably find some element of the truth I am seeking, and I am relieved of my anxiety and restlessness.
For Today: Trying to find my strengths and weaknesses is a process I go through with my Higher Power to guide me. I have nothing to fear from knowing the truth.
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I know why I am uncomfortable without something to occupy me: Then I am forced to think, and there are many things I do not want to think about. The program has taught me how to just ‘be’, without finding a source of amusement to occupy my mind.
Living in a society where we’re constantly on the go, it’s common to fall into the trap of expecting entertainment during every waking moment. Addiction is a disease of escape, and what better way TO escape than by eating to excess or running away from unpleasant thoughts?
Living in a society where we’re constantly on the go, it’s common to fall into the trap of expecting entertainment during every waking moment. Addiction is a disease of escape, and what better way TO escape than by eating to excess or running away from unpleasant thoughts?
Nowadays, when I have free time, I spend it in prayer with my Higher Power. I find answers that way…I keep a running dialogue open with God and I feel more at peace, like I am enfolded in unconditional love & caring. I find that a deeper sense of spirituality relieves me of fear & anxiety, and when I need help with something, an answer usually comes. During moments of real fear, I feel a calmness wash over me when I surrender that fear to God through prayer & meditation.
I no longer need distractions to keep me from pursuing my search for truth. Whatever truths I need to face, I CAN face, fearlessly and honestly, with the help of God and the 12 Steps to guide me.
This is something I need to deal with. I am going to make a go-to list to help deal with the time when I put off doing chores or am lonely.
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