The Language of Letting Go: May 17th

Boundaries

Sometimes, life and people seem to push and push. Because we are so used to pain, we may tell ourselves it doesn't hurt. Because we are so used to people controlling and manipulating us, we may tell ourselves there is something wrong with us.

There's nothing wrong with us. Life is pushing and hurting to get our attention. Sometimes, the pain and pushing are pointing toward a lesson. The lesson may be that we've become too controlling. Or maybe we're being pushed to own our power to take care of ourselves. The issue is boundaries.

If something or somebody is pushing us to our limit, that's exactly what's happening: we're being pushed to our limits. We can be grateful for the lesson that's here to help us explore and set our boundaries.

Today, I will give myself permission to set the limits I want and need to set in my life.

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When someone is controlling & manipulating me, why do I tell myself there is something wrong with ME?

Over the past 4 years of recovery, I've gotten used to setting boundaries.......because I've given myself permission to DO it!

Currently, on the job, someone IS attempting to control & manipulate me.  While this behavior does not feel 'good' to experience, I realize two things: it's not MY fault & I've done nothing to 'deserve' this treatment; and, this pain and pushing IS pointing toward a lesson..........I am being pushed to own my power & re-evaluate my job! Working full time to ONLY earn money to pay bills is not a good idea.  The situation is forcing me to look within and to decide how I want to live out the remaining years of my work life.  Do I want to do something personally fulfilling, where I can help others & give back to humanity?  Or, do I want to chase the almighty buck?

For today, I am grateful for the pain that has been brought to my life........it was brought there for a reason, as everything is.  God is at work teaching me a lesson and I intend to listen to what He has to say.