For Today:   June 17^th

The bare recollection of anger kindles anger.

Publilius Syrus

I was not aware of collecting injustices like beads on a string. That, in fact, is why I became a compulsive overeater: to block off awareness of a world that seethed with injustice. But eating to make pain go away only makes more pain.

The twelve-step program enables me to deal with the anger I once tried to eat away.  As painful as my feelings often are, today I am able to face them.

For Today: The best way I know to deal with anger and resentment is to take steps four through nine as often as necessary, and step ten daily.

“Eating to make pain go away only makes more pain.”  How true is THAT statement?!!!!!!

While it feels like 'freedom' to eat whatever I want whenever I want, the price tag attached to that 'freedom' is enormous. For the privilege of unrestricted food intake, I give UP my health, my happiness, my figure & my serenity. I trade spirituality & self-discipline for the momentary pleasures & tastes of excessive & unnecessary food.

OA & the Steps have taught me that true freedom comes from Abstinence & spirituality. 

I have a long memory when it comes to injustices.....I tend to hold onto anger tightly, in true addict style, and that can easily lead me to finding justification to practice those addiction(s).  The vicious cycle can be triggered quite easily when I do not stay on top of my programs. I am never but a bite away from allowing my compulsive overeating to sneak back in & take over my life. Again.

Nowadays I have a plan of action to deal with my anger. The Steps keep me on track & handling my anger in a positive fashion instead of holding it in & watching it turn against me.

"Resentment is like drinking poison yourself and then hoping it will kill your enemies."

-- Nelson Mandela

For today, I pray for the willingness to deal with my emotions & my feelings honestly, to recognize my anger & to let go of it in a positive fashion, with God's help, and one day at a time.