For Today: June 1st

It is easier to confess a defect than to claim a quality

Max Beerbohm

Ask me to name one outstanding quality about myself, and I will hem and haw, knowing deep down that my best self-appraisal is unreliable. It seems safer to be derogatory than complimentary, to criticize rather than praise. Perhaps it is habit that leads me in that direction. Often I am not conscious of my reproachful thoughts until they are clearly on the surface. Then I turn them over to my Higher Power, ask to have them removed so I may be free to live fully, without either arrogance or false modesty.

For Today: For an honest, balanced view of myself, I take a few moments in which I free my mind of everything except God’s love for me.

When I was overweight, I was very fond of putting myself down…..before someone else could. If I made some derogatory remark about myself, then I was putting into words what others were probably thinking.

And so, the habit of putting myself down was born.

If I was so unlovable, so fat, so reprehensible, then  life itself pretty much stunk. Where was the good? The honest? The beautiful? 

Living in a state of chronic negativity breeds hopelessness. 

OA has taught me a new way to live, to love myself no matter what my body may look like or weigh at any given time. Losing weight has been the process that allowed me to stop considering myself as a body & to start considering myself a soul, as God intended.

When I let go & let God, and surrender my powerlessness over food, I can live a happy, joyous & free LIFE, one day at a time.

Who knew that restricted food intake & the willingness to follow a food plan would result in me learning to love myself? I have finally grasped the ‘glass is half full’ mentality instead of the ‘glass half empty’ mentality I lived with forever.

For today, I am grateful for my food plan & I pray for the willingness to follow it, one day at a time, for LIFE!