Recovery Meditations: February 17th

~ CHANGES ~

They always say time changes things,
but you actually have to change them yourself.

Andy Warhol


Time changes things – but what things? Can I wait for time to change those ways of coping that don’t serve me anymore? Can I wait for time to make me abstinent?

Yes, time will change things, but chances are that these will be the changes: my coping mechanisms will become even more entrenched and my eating even more destructive. I don’t really want to wait for that kind of change. When I joined OA, I started a new trend. I asked for the wisdom to understand which things I can change and then, armed with the tools of the program, I set about following my new trend of eating healthy and living a life where I don’t sit around waiting.

I will not wait idly for things to get better. I will ask my Higher Power to guide me to make necessary changes.

One Day at a Time . . .
I will not wait idly for things to get better. I will ask my Higher Power to guide me to make necessary changes.

~ Isabella M. ~

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Compulsive overeating is a disease of progression, as all addictions are. Today's extra helping can easily turn into tomorrow's binge which then turns into a gigantic black hole of gorging myself where too much is never enough.  The scale creeps UP (I suppose, because I don't have the guts to get ON it.....) as my eating spirals out of control, day by day, bite by bite.

Time changes things.............for the better or for the worse. Do I delude myself that I can sit by idly and wait for things to magically get better? 

Or, do I ask God to guide me to MAKE the necessary changes? To accept the things I cannot change and the courage to change the things I CAN?

For today, I repeat the 5th Step prayer:

God, I offer myself to Thee
To build with me 
And to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help
Of Thy power
Thy love
And Thy way of life.
May I do Thy will always.

And then I repeat the Serenity Prayer:

God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The Courage to change the things I can;
And the Wisdom to know the difference.

For today, I pray for acceptance.