Food for Thought: February 27th

No Standing Still

Life is movement, and to be alive is to change. There is no standing still. Either we are making progress in the control of our disease, or we are getting worse.

Progress forward is an upward climb. To look back with longing at a time which in retrospect seems easier, or to think about the so-called pleasure we once got from food, is to invite disaster. We have long passed the point of being satisfied with a small amount of uncontrolled eating. Now, a small amount will inevitably become a large amount, and instead of pleasure we will eventually feel much physical and emotional pain.

If we are making progress, let's keep at it and not be deluded into going backwards. If we are losing control and slipping, let's recognize that we are on a downward course and that our disease is getting worse. Let's stop rationalizing and making excuses. Right now we can turn around and start climbing.

May I keep climbing.

From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations for Overeaters by Elisabeth L. ©1980, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation.

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Compulsive eating, just like all addictions, is  disease of progression. Nobody started out eating a whole cake..............it started out with an extra slice of cake. A snack before dinner.  An extra helping here and there.  It progressed into a black hole of excess, where there's no such thing as 'enough'.
Why get started on that path of taking that first compulsive bite? It WILL lead to a full fledged binge, there will BE no satisfaction, and the disease will progress ANOTHER notch in the process!!

I laugh at the word 'slip'..........a slip is a garment I wear under a dress.  I don't 'slip' on my program of abstinence...........I JUMP head first into what I KNOW will be a binge. It's not a 'slip' to take that first compulsive bite..........it is a conscious decision to jump down the rabbit hole into a place of self loathing and misery.  If I 'slip', then I CHOOSE pain, and have nobody and nothing to blame but myself.  I know better so it's up to me to DO better.

For today, my food plan prevails. IT is in charge, along with God, and I relinquish MY control-freak tendencies and surrender.