For Today: January 6th

The philosophy of waiting is sustained by all the oracles of the universe.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

I need only to look and see that all things happen in their own time.  The resolution of each problem has its own timetable.  No amount of wishing, wringing of hands or raging will effect a change.

Acceptance is the simple act of going through what is presently facing me, be it pain, anger, despair, hopelessness or their opposites.  When life as it really is becomes a fact that I accept as naturally as I breathe, events lose their power to throw me off balance or disturb the basic rhythm of my life.

For Today:  Acceptance also comes in its own time, and I do not berate myself for not having it on demand.

***************************************************************

Acceptance of my disease is the first step in dealing with it, for what it is, instead of fighting against it, thinking I can turn myself into a 'normal' eater.  

Letting go of my need to control the world is the second step towards acceptance..........if I feel like I have to take charge of everyone and everything, then I am taking the weight of the world upon my shoulders and not allowing God to be in charge.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;

The courage to change the things I can;

And the wisdom to know the difference.

I probably utter the Serenity prayer a dozen or more times a day.  It helps me recognize the things that are out of my hands, and belong in God's hands instead.  I want to 'fix' everything for everybody, but I realize I cannot.  For years, I'd stuff back that feeling of helplessness and (what I perceived to be) inadequacy, with excess food. 

I tried to fill a hole in my soul with calories.

Only God can fill that hole.........no amount of food on earth will do His job.

When I live a clean, abstinent lifestyle is when I am able to dissolve my psychological sewage (thank you Marianne Williamson) and eliminate that waste from my body & spirit.  Otherwise, I carry that sewage around on my body in the form of excess weight.

For today, I will work on dissolving some more psychological sewage from my soul, by working the steps and taking a fearless and searching moral inventory.


For today, I will allow God to run my life, and I will do the necessary footwork to insure my recovery.


For today, I will accept God's timetable instead of my own.