For Today: December 5th

You find in solitude only what you take to it.

Juan Ramon Jimenez

If I force preconceived notions onto a problem, what can I learn?  To learn something new, I need an open mind, a trusting mind which can wander into places that once frightened me.

Rather than suppress thoughts and feelings, it is better to give them a good airing, to look at them in the clear light of day.  Unattended, hidden feelings, like illusions, once defeated me.  Today, I know that feelings cannot hurt me as long as I’m willing to look at them and see them for what they are.

For Today:  What I bring to my moments of solitude, when I look inward at my feelings and attitudes, is self-honesty and openmindedness.

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If I'm certain I know all the answers, I close my mind to the possibility of change.

When I examine my feelings honestly & openly is when I realize that emotions will not kill me......but obesity & compulsive overeating can & will.

Living in denial & illusion prevents me from accepting my adulthood; it keeps me in a child-like state where I stomp my feet & hold my breath until I turn blue when I don't get exactly what I want.

OA has taught me to live in the grown up world & to act accordingly.  When I say No to my inner child, I am  learning self-discipline and setting boundaries.  Just because I 'feel like' overeating does not mean I must overeat.  Just because my inner brat wants to run the show doesn't mean I am going to allow her to do so!


For today, I will be honest & forthcoming with myself.  I will treat myself as an adult & I will accept the responsibilities I face.  First and foremost, I will accept the terms of my food plan today, without altering it one tiny bit.