For Today: December 14th

Do not peer too far.

Pindar

It would be a frightening thing to be able to see into the future.

Equally joyless and disquieting, however, is the all-too-familiar habit of Someday.  “Someday, I will take that tap dancing class….sign up for volunteer service at the hospital….go on that cruise to the Greek islands.”

I have lived in the future too long.  My life is going on now, and there is only one way to live it: now.

For Today:  I neither want to know the future, nor to live in it before it arrives.

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This reading perfectly summarizes the "One Day at a Time" mentality of OA. 

In the past, I was SO concerned with the quality of my future that I was paralyzed to live for today.


All the 'what if's' immobilized me.........prevented me from accepting or embracing change..........kept me locked into the dysfunctional lifestyle of addiction.


There can be no personal growth when I refuse to change.  I stay locked into a childish mentality that insists I get what I want, when I want it.  My inner child rules with an iron fist and forces me to have MY way, all the time, no matter WHAT.


When it comes to food, my inner child tells me it's perfectly OK to overeat because I 'deserve' to.  In reality, the only outcome of that behavior is obesity & slavery to addiction.


For today, I will stay abstinent and act like a grown-up.  When my inner child starts carrying on and telling me what I'm 'entitled' to eat, I will put her in time-out, where she belongs.


For today, I will not utter the words "Someday".............today IS my Someday.