For Today: December 2nd

We shall sooner have the fowl by hatching the egg than by smashing it.

Abraham Lincoln

It is impossible to hurry some things.  If I am abstinent, I will lose weight.  If I push and shove and spin my wheels, it is only an appearance of activity that accomplishes nothing.  When I want a defect removed before its time, when I want more growth, when I want things to go my way, I remember that life is on God’s timetable, not mine.

Patience is a part of humility, of tempering “I want” with a willingness to wait.

For Today:  I remind myself that drawing up a timetable can doom me to failure, just as goals of perfection have done.  I do not set myself up for this anymore.

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Impatience was my middle name.  I was always in a hurry........always wanting things done MY way and on MY timetable.  When I decided to become abstinent and start working the steps, I also made a decision to become an adult and to grow up, finally.

Growing up means I agree to do the footwork and allow God to do the rest.  It means cultivating patience and the willingness to accept life on life's terms, not MY terms.

Accepting myself as an adult means I put aside my childish ways and quit stomping my feet and throwing temper tantrums when I don't get what I want.


Being an adult means sticking to a regimented food plan because if I refuse to do that, I remain obese and out of control with my entire life.  I agree to do the job before me, whether I 'feel like' it or not.  That's part of adulthood.


When I put my Ego in check is when I humble myself to God's will and when I accept the fact that I'm a compulsive overeater who will never be 'cured'. 


For today, I accept the terms of recovery by staying true to my food plan and working the Steps.  I may be an addict but I don't 'have to' act like one.

For today, I choose to act like an adult.