For Today: October 31st

Nothing contributes so much to tranquilize the mind as a steady purpose.

Mary Wollstonecraft

I came to OA because I wanted to get well more than I wanted to eat.  That is the steady purpose that directs my life today.  I place freedom from compulsive overeating before everything else because I do not want to return to the life I had without it.  Before OA, the only tranquility I knew was to anesthetize myself with food, an indulgence for which I paid dearly the rest of the time.  Nothing could save me from the mental and emotional anguish and confusion of being fat, feeling guilty and hating myself for lack of control.

Today, I am not confused about who I am and what I am doing.  I am a compulsive overeater, relieved by the grace of God from the obsession, and recovering in this place I call home.

For Today:  Staying aware of my purpose in living by the OA program is my true source of peace of mind.  Therefore, it is my number one priority, and nothing---no food, no circumstances, no person----can tempt me to give it up.

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My program MUST stay my #1 priority otherwise compulsive overeating becomes my #1 priority; it's just that simple.

The pain I created by eating compulsively was far worse than the occasional discomforts I may experience from staying abstinent.  I want to recover MORE than I want to overeat and so, I will do whatever it takes to keep my program intact.


When I surrender my powerlessness over food, I agree to stick to my food plan with no exceptions. In turn, I am relieved from my obsession because I quit questioning whether I should take an off plan bite, just this once.  That behavior is NOT an option for me, unless I want to reawaken my addiction.


For today, I will stick to my food plan and appreciate the relief it gives me.