For Today: October 2nd

How nature loves the incomplete.

She knows

If she drew a conclusion it would

Finish her.

Christopher Fry

There is never an end to change, to growth.  I have seen selfish desires vanish, self-pity disappear; I have attained qualities that at one time seemed entirely out of reach.  All are the products of growth, the ongoing rewards of struggle. I often think, in the midst of pain, “If I can just get through this, I will be fine.”  But no sooner do I get through ti than another problem shows up, and the process begins again.

How far can I go?  Beyond my wildest imagination.  The quality of my life has no limit.

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What I've noticed lately is that there is NO end to the left curves life throws at me.  Just as soon as I get through one difficult situation, another one pops up. 

And so it goes in the cycle of life.

If I choose to break my abstinence due to one of these difficult situations that crop up, where will that leave me?  In a position to do it AGAIN, during the next difficult situation that WILL crop up.

If I compromise my food plan once, it's easier to compromise it again. 

When I compromise my program, I stunt my growth.  I set myself back into the pit of compulsion where nothing makes sense EVER.  

If I put myself back into a state where I feel nothing, I blot out JOY as well as PAIN. 

For today, I want to feel ALL of my emotions, good and bad, and KNOW that I CAN get through them withOUT overeating or drinking.

For today, I want to KEEP growing as a human being and in order to do so, I must stick to my plan of abstinence.  God has a plan FOR me, and I am in NO position to change that plan.

I will do the footwork required of ME so that God's will can be done.  For today, I will allow myself to grow BECAUSE of my struggles instead of trying to change them.