For Today: March 3rd

It is when we try to make our will conform with God's that we begin to use it rightly.
Bill W.

It is easy to confuse certain desirable attributes with undesirable ones. To have humility, for example, does not mean to feel inferior. On the contrary, it means feeling equal--neither less nor more worthy than anyone.

The same is true of willfulness, which I have often confused with determination, perseverance and individualism. The latter are qualities belonging to people who think and act in a balanced, rational, adult manner. Self-will is an infantile expression of omnipotence, the delusion that I can force life to be exactly as I want it to be. That is the insanity of compulsive overeating.

Seeking to conform my will with God's is what restores me to sanity. It gives me abstinence, peace of mind and freedom from obsession.

For Today: To know what God would have me do is my first priority, for that knowledge smooths my path and frees me to live with energy and love.

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The insanity of compulsive overeating is "forcing life to be exactly as I want it to be."  The I Will Eat What I Want When I Want To mentality because I Deserve It; forcing others to conform to MY way of thinking; expecting to live life on MY terms, by MY rules. Compulsive overeating is the refusal to grow up, become an adult & accept life on life's terms. Self-will gone berserk.

When I recognize these facts is when I am able to surrender MY way & to develop some new ways of thinking & coping with life. Excess food doesn't help me Cope, it helps me REFUSE to cope. Excess food doesn't make me happy, it makes me miserable. Letting go & letting God direct my life is a relief from the burden of running the world.  When I stop trying TO run the world is when I can stop caving into MY desires & start living life according to God's will FOR me.

For today, I pray that I may feel that God's power is mine. I pray that I may be able to face anything through that power.