For Today: March 28th

For Today: March 28^th

On action alone be thy interest, never on its fruits.

Bhagavad Gita

Why am I still obsessed with weight? I’m abstaining, I’m trying to work the steps; but I can’t give up the scale. I’m terrified to stop the constant monitoring of my weight. What if I gain? How will I know it if I don’t weigh?

The problem is, I’m trying to work this program without giving up control. But is that possible? The first three steps make it clear that those who wrote them, and millions who followed, proved they could only recover by letting a Power outside themselves regulate their unmanageable lives.

If I say I have faith in a Higher Power, I can take the next step and turn my weight over to that Power. I can concentrate on taking the action-----abstaining and working the steps-----and leave the results to God.

For Today: If I stop ‘supervising’ my weight loss, it will be taken care of-----in God’s time. I pray for the willingness to do that.

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One thing I have been very diligent about is NOT allowing the scale to interfere with my Program, thank God.  While I was losing weight, I only weighed in once a week and never, ever more often. 

Nowadays in maintenance, I tend to weigh in once every other week just to make sure I’m on track with my food intake.  I’ve recently considered weighing in only once a month. Or maybe not at all.

I have been a slave to the scale for way, way too long, and I’ve allowed it to dictate my mood and to gauge my progress. In reality, my mood AND my progress needs to be dictated by my Abstinence. If I am eating & behaving within the parameters of the OA program, I do NOT need a food scale or a bathroom scale.   If I am behaving within the parameters of OA, I am a happy person & not dwelling on the appearance of my body; I am focused on the condition of my soul instead.

THAT is where peace lies; inside my soul. If peace & serenity lie inside my soul, my body looks slim & health radiates from every pore of my skin.

For today, I pray to keep Abstinence my #1 priority & to rely on IT instead of electronic devices to keep me balanced.