Food for Thought: January 2nd

Help!

When we hit bottom and are ready to swallow our pride, help is available. When we admit that by ourselves we are powerless, a Higher Power takes over. Most of us have tried for years to control what we eat by ourselves. Often it seems that the harder we try, the more miserably we fail. We despair. When we are truly desperate and ask for help, OA can help us.

We have proven that we cannot solve our problem alone. A diet is not enough. We need a program that fills our emotional and spiritual needs as well as our physical ones.

Step by step and day by day we can learn to live without overeating. We will gradually become convinced that no amount of physical food will ever satisfy our emotional and spiritual hunger. The Higher Power, which infuses each OA GROUP, becomes our lifesaver and our nourishment.

God, save me from myself.

From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations for Overeaters by Elisabeth L. ©1980, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation.

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I know for a FACT that there is no amount of food on earth to satisfy my emotional & spiritual hunger. Which is why, when I have a binge, it gets bigger & uglier every time: because food can't fill me up.......it's impossible.

I stick to my food plan of abstinence because the pain of addiction is far greater than the pain of following a structured eating plan!!! I just said those very words to a dear friend who is struggling right now, wanting to give UP and give IN to the desire to keep bingeing.

I asked her, "When will it be 'enough' food? When will the binge satisfy you? When you are 300 lbs, or 400 lbs, or 500 lbs?"

I watched My 600 Pound Life last night on TV.  The 653 lb woman, Melissa, ate breakfast at 8 am, 9 am, 10 am, 11 am, and then started eating lunch at 12.........then 1, 2, 3, 4, 5..........then started dinner at 6..............and so it went.  Was her out of control eating 'enough'? Apparently not.

When we refuse to work on the reasons WHY we want to stuff our bodies so full of food we can't even move............THEN the addiction wins & we continue eating. But we never feel full.

There but for the grace of God go I............walking in Melissa's shoes.............or an 800 lb person's shoes...........convinced I am 'unable' to put my addiction into remission.

For today, I will stick to my Food Plan of abstinence & thank God FOR it! I will consider it 'enough' food for today, and I will not veer off of it.