For Today: August 24th

Nothing is unthinkable, nothing impossible to the balanced person, provided it arises out of the needs of life and is dedicated to life’s further developments.

Lewis Mumford

Today, I open my mind to everything that could be --- possibilities that are far from the idle wishing of the old days, but rather a loosening of restrictions, a broadening of the imagination.  I leave my life up to my Higher Power, remove my hindering ways and let my spirit soar.  I seek to be more honest, more aware, to have closer relationships, a better ability to carry the message, more time to serve.

I have received, and now pass on to others, what was once impossible: the hope of spiritual awakening, of recovery from compulsive overeating. 

For Today: I keep an open mind to having an open mind, the possibilities are endless.

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"Balance" is a word I had NO comprehension of.  I lived in the extremes.........if a little was good, a lot was better.  Until 'a lot' reached the point of insanity & my binges were getting progressively worse.  That's the nature of compulsive overeating: constant stuffing but no satisfaction. I reached the point where I realized that trigger food would NEVER 'satisfy me' so why bother getting started? Same thing with booze. 

Balance is something I had to FORCE on myself; a structured routine provides balance to the person who has none.  I eat 6 small meals a day on a strict schedule, I take the stairs at work 4x per day, I exercise for 1/2 an hour every night, I go to sleep at 11 pm and I wake up at 6 am, I clean the house & do the laundry as soon as the need arises, without putting it off, and I stay on top of the chores that way.  I used to overwhelm myself with all that had to be done and wind up stressing out over it and getting NOTHING done.  Procrastination drives my compulsion to overeat and keeps me unbalanced.  

I have truly received what was once impossible: the hope of spiritual awakening & recovery from compulsive overeating. That is not to say I am 'perfect' or I don't struggle at all: I DO.  But I have a program to follow and a Higher Power to guide me when I find my thoughts veering off into left field.

I may be an addict but I don't have to ACT like one: with the help of this program, I CAN and DO find balance in my life, one day at a time.