Recovery
Meditations: October 22nd
Scars
“Dwelling on the
negative
simply contributes to
its power.”
Shirley MacLaine
I’ve lived most of my life filled with bitterness towards
people, God and myself. My mind, soul, and body were consumed by hatred,
self-pity, pain, hopelessness, and a complete sense of powerlessness. I focused
my energy on reviewing my scars. I counted them, checked them, nurtured them,
and flaunted them. They were proof of all the wrongs I’d endured. They were my
source of energy. They were my identity. They were my badge of sorrow.
As I work my recovery, I am beginning to see everything from
a new perspective. Gradually my head is lifted and my eyes are turned away from
my once-beloved scars. The more I allow myself to accept that my powerlessness
is not a prison of doom, the more I discover that it is my doorway to faith,
surrender, and serenity.
My scars are still here. There is no magic potion to remove
them. What is magical, however, is that I see them so differently. I find that
I have a choice to make every day: I can cherish my scars as proof of the pain
I have suffered, or I can be thankful for them as evidence of things I have
survived. Scar tissue forms and creates a stronger, thicker skin in its place.
I can either pick at it and make it bleed, or I can welcome the lessons and
endurance it has built into my life.
One day at a time...
I will choose to see
my scars as proof of the difficulties I have survived. I will choose to
appreciate them as evidence that God has brought me through suffering and has
used all things to strengthen my faith in Him, my hope for tomorrow, and my
serenity for today.
~ Lisa
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Each Day A New Beginning
—Kathleen Tierney Crilly
Children look to us and their world with fresh eyes, un-cynical attitudes, open hearts. They react spontaneously to the events in their lives; what they feel is who they are.
Close observation of children can help us. See how complex we have made our lives! Their simple honesty can serve us well. To look at the world, once again, with wonder, is a byproduct offered us when we live the principles of this program.
So many gifts await us when we accept the program and its principles. We dispense with the baggage of the past. We learn to live this day only. And we come to believe that there is a power greater than ourselves that has everything and us in our lives under control. Children instinctively trust those who take care of them. We can learn to trust, once again, when we apply the Steps of this program to our lives.
I will look to this day with wonder and trust. Everything is okay. I am in the care of a power greater.
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Food For Thought
God, as understood by each of us, has the Power to heal our bodies, minds, and hearts. Once we realize that we are sick, we can open ourselves to the Power, which will affect our recovery. As we delve more deeply into the OA program, we see that it is not only the body, which suffers from the disease of compulsive overeating. Mind and emotions are also muddled and in need of God's cleansing.
The healing process can be painful. Sometimes we have to get worse in order to get better. Sometimes we have to be more devastated by overeating, by pride, by fear and selfishness before we are willing to turn ourselves over to our Higher Power for healing. We do not make the effort to work the Twelve Steps until we see how desperately ill we are.
God heals, but He requires our cooperation and effort. The extent of our recovery is determined by the intensity of our desire to get well. When our desire is focused on the source of health and held there steadily, we can become whole.
We pray for healing.
From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations for Overeaters by Elisabeth L. ©1980, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation
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The Language of Letting Go
Trust yourself. Trust what you know.
Sometimes, it is hard to stand in our own truth and trust what we know, especially when others would try to convince us otherwise.
In these cases, others may be dealing with issues of guilt and shame. They may have their own agenda. They may be immersed in denial. They would like us to believe that we do not know what we know; they would like us not to trust ourselves; they would prefer to engage us in their nonsense.
We don't have to forfeit our truth or our power to others. That is codependency.
Believing lies is dangerous. When we stop trusting our truth, when we repress our instincts, when we tell ourselves there must be something wrong with us for feeling what we feel or believing what we believe, we deal a deadly blow to our self and our health.
When we discount that important part of ourselves that knows what is the truth, we cut ourselves off from our center. We feel crazy. We get into shame, fear, and confusion. We can't get our bearings when we allow someone to pull the rug from under us.
This does not mean that we are never wrong. But we are not always wrong.
Be open. Stand in our truth. Trust what you know. And refuse to buy into denial, nonsense, bullying, or coercion that would like to take you off course.
Ask to be shown the truth, clearly - not by the person trying to manipulate or convince you, but by yourself, your Higher Power, and the Universe.
Today, I will trust my truth, my instincts, and my ability to ground myself in reality. I will not allow myself to be swayed by bullying, manipulating, games, dishonesty, or people with peculiar agendas.
From The
Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie ©1990, Hazelden Foundation.
Today's thought from the Hazelden Betty Ford Foundation is:
When we have internalized Step One, our lives reflect it.
Admitting we are powerless over alcohol is not very difficult for most of us. Admitting we are powerless over the alcoholic is another matter. After all, we have used shame quite successfully to get our way on occasion, intimidation sometimes worked. Our relentlessness sometimes wore the alcoholic down. But we never really changed that person.
Fully accepting our powerlessness over all other people may seem scary at first. (What will we do with our time?) But it makes our own lives so much simpler. Relief from worry and frustration is only the first gift. Having time to pursue our own goals comes next. Discovering happiness at will is another blessing. Once we get used to being powerless over other people, we'll realize how much living we gave up in the past.
I will find joy in my powerlessness today. I will have more energy for myself.
When we have internalized Step One, our lives reflect it.
Admitting we are powerless over alcohol is not very difficult for most of us. Admitting we are powerless over the alcoholic is another matter. After all, we have used shame quite successfully to get our way on occasion, intimidation sometimes worked. Our relentlessness sometimes wore the alcoholic down. But we never really changed that person.
Fully accepting our powerlessness over all other people may seem scary at first. (What will we do with our time?) But it makes our own lives so much simpler. Relief from worry and frustration is only the first gift. Having time to pursue our own goals comes next. Discovering happiness at will is another blessing. Once we get used to being powerless over other people, we'll realize how much living we gave up in the past.
I will find joy in my powerlessness today. I will have more energy for myself.
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