Recovery Meditations: September 15th

~ STEP SIX ~

The Spiritual lift, the nearness to our Creator
that is experienced from humble invocation of His help,
and our willingness to be freed from old willfull thoughts and habits
are essential to successful attainment of these steps.

The Little Red Book


I am a compulsive overeater. I eat three moderate meals each day without exception. In between, I have nothing except sugar-free gum, water, diet soda, and black coffee. Today I am working hard to allow my Higher Power to remove my imperfections. The focus is on the removal of blame, resentment, fear, and self-pity. I want to blame. I do resent. I have a lot of fear, but with surrender it is not paralyzing. I easily feel sorry for myself and cry about it. All of this threatens my abstinence, which is about sanity. The weight loss is an extra reward. The ability to approach responsibilities and feelings is the life force which I cannot take for granted.

When food was my higher power it was hell. I take my disease and recovery seriously. It's choosing life over slow, torturous death. All my problems are the same, yet somehow they are livable. Continually asking for removal of my defects results in a decrease of anxiety. I believe fully that my Higher Power will remove my problems in a time and way which I have no control over, as long as I remain willing. Today I am completely willing. I am grateful to have been chosen for recovery.

One day at a time...
I can eat three weighed, measured and committed meals without exception. I enjoy my meals and feel satisfied by them.

~ Ellen ~
******************************Yes, I am a compulsive overeater. I, however, eat 6 small meals each day without exception. In between, I have nothing except sugar free gum, water, diet soda & black coffee. I must do the INSIDE work in order for abstinence to remain intact, otherwise I am back into the grips of COE and the hellish nightmare that goes with it.

I take my disease and my recovery seriously, as I choose life over a slow, torturous death. There is no problem I cannot handle when abstinence takes priority in my life.  For today, I am completely willing to do whatever is necessary to keep my disease in remission and my life on track.

I eat 6 measured and committed meals today without exception. I eat plenty of food and feel satisfied in doing so.  Food is no longer running MY life, but God and I are running it together, one day at a time.