Research
In OA meetings, we sometimes hear reports of "research" done by a member who breaks abstinence in order to find out whether he or she is still a compulsive overeater. The experiment invariably proves that once a compulsive overeater, always a compulsive overeater. Among the results are remorse, regained weight, and weakened control.
It has been said that we are like someone who has lost a leg. We do not grow a new one. We can, nevertheless, learn to live with our disability if we are willing to abstain and follow the OA program. Most of us find that we cannot go back to eating binge foods moderately, but we can avoid them. We are like the alcoholic who can lead a normal, satisfying life as long as he or she stays away from alcohol.
Further research is not necessary. By accepting our need for a disciplined eating plan, we can benefit from the experience of those who have been in the program longer than we.
May I remember that further research is unnecessary.
From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations for Overeaters by Elisabeth L.
©1980, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation.In OA meetings, we sometimes hear reports of "research" done by a member who breaks abstinence in order to find out whether he or she is still a compulsive overeater. The experiment invariably proves that once a compulsive overeater, always a compulsive overeater. Among the results are remorse, regained weight, and weakened control.
It has been said that we are like someone who has lost a leg. We do not grow a new one. We can, nevertheless, learn to live with our disability if we are willing to abstain and follow the OA program. Most of us find that we cannot go back to eating binge foods moderately, but we can avoid them. We are like the alcoholic who can lead a normal, satisfying life as long as he or she stays away from alcohol.
Further research is not necessary. By accepting our need for a disciplined eating plan, we can benefit from the experience of those who have been in the program longer than we.
May I remember that further research is unnecessary.
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I've done so much research over the years, that I've named it Yo Yo Dieting. Every time I conduct an experiment to see if I'm STILL a compulsive overeater, I let the tiger out of his cage & have one helluva time getting him back INSIDE!
The results are always the same: Yes, I'm still a compulsive overeater. Yes, I will always BE a compulsive overeater, period. I don't test whether or not I'm still an alcoholic by taking a drink, because I know the answer to that question. Yes, I'm STILL an alcoholic. Why, then, do I sometimes feel the need to test the waters with junk food?
In the end, it's a whole lot easier and less insane to avoid junk food than it is to try to strike up a relationship with it. "Moderation" is not a word that exists in this girls' vocabulary, when it pertains to my drugs of choice, so who am I kidding by testing the waters?
For today, I do not feel the need to conduct 'further research.' For today, I accept the fact that I am an addict and I will DO what I need to DO to stay in recovery.
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