Recovery Meditations: November 15th

STEP TWO

"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
and expecting a different result."

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow


While in the grip of my disease I tried many things to deal with my compulsive overeating. I tried many, many diets, fasting, exercise programs, treatment, therapy, church and even resorted to weight loss surgery. I did the same thing over and over again. I tried outward solutions to fix an inward problem. And the sad thing was I somehow thought that I would get different results: a permanent change of my compulsive overeating. But it did not work that way. It was acting with insanity. I was frustrated and very, very sad. All along, I knew there was something wrong with me, that I was not normal, but I didnt know what to do about it.

Then the blessing of the program came to me. I learned about Step Two: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. I came to believe that was true. I finally was doing something different. Never before had I approached my compulsive overeating on three levels all at the same time. I had never seen my disease as a physical, emotional and spiritual disease that needed addressing at the same time, one day at a time. I began to slowly learn how to do this through the steps and the tools, with the help of sponsors and friends in the program. I found myself doing something different and getting different results. I found my sanity returning, piece by piece.

One Day at a Time . . .
I will do something different, knowing I will get different results.

~ Carolyn

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Compulsive overeating is insanity........the definition & epitome of mind chaos.  To be obsessed with food all the time is a cycle that seems impossible to stop.  I suppose it IS impossible to stop until we agree to take a different approach; the Recovery approach instead of a new diet, a new pill, or a new procedure that will 'fix' us.  

 

When I put my life in God's hands, I know that I am capable of ANYTHING.  When I believe my disease is three-fold, physical, emotional & spiritual, then I am able to address the reality of it rather than the fantasy that a simple 'diet' can restore me to sanity.

 

When I work the steps I begin to change myself, from the inside out, and that's when I face the disease for what it really IS.

 

For today, I will work my OA program diligently, and I will stick to my Food Plan of abstinence, just for the next 24 hours.  The results I WANT are available to me if I do the work that's required of me.  

For today, I will not function with the insanity of doing the same thing over & over again, expecting different results.