For Today: November 9th

Nothing is more desirable than to be released from an affliction, but nothing is more frightening than to be divested of a crutch.

James Baldwin

Are there any compulsive overeaters  who do not want to be free of the consequences of their disease?

No one wants to suffer the effects of obesity and/or enslavement to food.  But the real question is, am I willing to give up the temporary oblivion food provides?  That crutch enabled me to hobble through life when nothing else seemed to help.

Yes, the thought of losing that crutch is frightening.  But in OA, no one is asking me to give up the food and go out and try to make it as a normal eater.  Instead, they give me the one solution OA has: the twelve-step program of recovery.  Step one administers the first dose of truth: I am powerless over food; and steps two and three tell me what to do about that powerlessness.

For Today:  I surrender my crutch of food to a Power greater than myself, which is doing for me what I could never do for myself.

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I want to be free of the symptoms of my disease, but, am I willing to go to any lengths to find that freedom?

Am I willing to give up my crutch of excess food?

Am I willing to give up the mind-numbing effects of a binge?

Am I willing to work the 12 steps to the best of my ability as a way OUT of this mess?

Wanting something & being willing to do what it TAKES to get it are two different things.

A crutch can feel like a security blanket........all warm and fuzzy..........until that crutch turns against me and  takes over my entire life.  What started out as an aid eventually turned into an albatross.

For today, I AM willing to give up my crutch and to stand on my own two feet.  With God behind me, I can do anything, one day at a time.