For Today: November 20th

As I watched the seagulls, I thought, “That’s the road to take; find the absolute rhythm and follow it with absolute trust.”

Nikon Kazantzakis

Compulsion is self-will gone berserk.  It is the polar opposite of effortless abstinence—of being in harmony with the rhythm of the universe, “going with the flow,” letting go and letting God.

When I surrendered my compulsion to God, I found the absolute rhythm and followed it with absolute trust.  It is as close as a human being can come to being a part of nature.

In speaking of her experience of surrender, an OA recalls sensing rather than hearing a kind of music that seemed to be made by all of nature’s elements----herself included---acting in harmony.

For Today:  There is more to be experienced in surrendering my life to a Higher Power than I can ever imagine.

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Self will..........the power I have to destroy myself in the blink of an eye.

Hah.

When I surrendered my powerlessness over food is when I gave my life over to the care & direction of God, a Power greater than Me Me Me.

When I agree to stick to an abstinent food plan, I give up my will & take on God's will for me.

Look what I've accomplished on my own: eating myself up to obesity & misery.

Look what God has accomplished for me:  maintenance of a healthy body, mind, and spirit through avoidance of excess food.

When I allow my self-will to run berserk, my entire life is out of control.

When I allow God to guide me, my entire life is calmer, happier and more controlled in general. 

I follow the path that God wants me to follow; I do the footwork, and I allow Him to do the rest.

One day at a time..........for the next 24 hours only, I will put my life into God's hands & allow Him to guide me into making wise decisions.

When I woke up this morning, I thanked God for another day of abstinence & sobriety.  Before I go to sleep tonight, I will thank Him for another day of abstinence & sobriety.  When I wake up tomorrow, with God's help, I will be thankful for another day of abstinence & sobriety.

Lather, rinse, & repeat.  This is how I build abstinence..........little by little, in 24 hour increments, and, before I know it, I've chalked up nearly 3 1/2 years of peace & serenity.  Not that every moment of every day is 'perfect' or without challenge............but every day is certainly better & happier than it was when I was running my life with no help.