For Today: November 7th

There is no fruit which is not bitter before it is ripe.

Publilius Syrus

Experience is not acquired without bruises and pain.  That’s why I say I am grateful to be a compulsive overeater.  Without the disease, I would not know of Overeaters Anonymous and the twelve step program of recovery, which has been called a blueprint for a sane and happy life.

To wish for the rewards of growth without having to go through the growing pains is futile.  Avoidance of pain stops growth cold; and when growth stops, regression is next.  Recovery calls for going through each step, feeling all the feelings and having the patience to wait for results.

For Today:  I accept with gratitude whatever progress I am making, however small.

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“When growth stops, regression is next.”   When I ditch my food plan, the rest of my LIFE regresses.  And it does so at the speed of light.

Why clean the house if I’ve ditched my program?  Today is my ‘day off from abstinence’ so let’s really MAKE it a day off………..from all of life.  Why get dressed?  Why be on time to work, or, why show up at ALL? 

When I make a decision to ditch my food plan, I’m making a decision to halt my recovery entirely.  I will numb myself (with excess food) from all of LIFE, and I will shun recovery & avoid even thinking about it.

It’s so easy to get back into the mindset of denial……….I can do that at the drop of a pin.

For today, I choose to stay abstinent & true to my program of recovery.  I choose to move forward instead of backwards.