For Today: November 10th

Whatever games are played with us, we must play no games with ourselves, but deal in our privacy with the last honesty and truth.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

I cannot play games with myself where my disease is concerned and expect to be sane and spiritually fit.  I won’t be arrested for driving under the influence of compulsive overeating, but I can be just as irrational in my thinking, just as estranged from my values as a drunken driver.  I played that game before I knew a better way to live.

Once I took the first step—admitted food had me beaten---I found I could look for other honest answers without fear.

For Today:  My abstinence and my sanity depend, above all, on being honest with myself.

**********************************************************************

 I cannot play games with myself where my disease is concerned and expect to be sane & spiritually fit.  How true is that???

When I tell myself the 'just this once' lie, or, 'it's a special occasion' lie, then I'm thrusting myself back into the jaws of compulsive overeating yet again.  

When I ram my head into a brick wall, I will get hurt......and I know that, yet, my disease makes me think I can do it and get away with it.

This disease lies, it cheats, it steals........it robs me of my sanity and tries to convince me otherwise!

 

I have found a better way to live, thanks to OA, and for today, I choose to practice abstinence and sobriety.  For today, Thursday, I will practice abstinence NOW instead of telling myself to start fresh on Monday.  Monday never comes, but Thursday is the perfect time!