Recovery Meditations: April 4th

~ Commitment ~

Shallow men believe in luck ~
Strong men believe in cause and effect.

Ralph Waldo Emerson


Abstinence did not happen for me until I made a commitment to it. I realized that I would have abstinence until something was a bit too uncomfortable for me to face or feel. Then I would have a slip. So it became a game for me. Was this event or circumstance enough to justify another slip? Sure, why not? That's the nature of the disease. Everything and anything was an excuse to eat.

It wasn't until I made a commitment to abstinence that I was forced to find my solutions in the Twelve Steps and really let go of my addiction. I'm grateful to my Higher Power that I hit the bottom I did. By accepting the truth about myself and my food addiction, I am now free to live in the solution.

One Day at a Time . . .
I will renew my commitment by receiving the gift of abstinence and practicing my program to the best of my ability.

~ Christine S. ~

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I love this reading! The only 'slip' I have is the one I wear under a dress. If I break my abstinence, that's what I do: I give UP my program willingly, knowing I may not be able to get it BACK.......for a piece of FOOD. It's not a 'slip' at all, but a conscious decision to make a big, big mistake.

Abstinence has nothing to do with 'luck'............it has everything to do with commitment and planning.  If I break abstinence every time a problem crops up that I don't want to deal with, then I have NO form of abstinence at ALL! What I have is a bunch of excuses and B.S.

I either lie to myself or keep it real and honest. Abstinence does not just 'happen'........it takes a lot of hard work and commitment, and refusal to eat trigger foods and refusal to take that FIRST compulsive bite of ANYTHING!

For today, I commit to abstinence and finding my solutions in the 12 Steps rather than in a plate of SLUDGE. 

For today, I am willing to let go of my addiction.