Recovery Meditations: December 29th

~GRATITUDE FOR ADVERSITY ~

He was my greatest teacher.
He taught me patience.

The Dalai Lama on Mao Tse Tung


Whenever I feel downtrodden or disappointed by the hand that life has dealt me, I often think of this quote. It moves me beyond speech. Here was a man who had lost his homeland to communist China, yet he still had a good thing to say about the man who started it all. It forces me to come to a realization that what has happened to me is peanuts!

Too often I am caught up with feeling sorry for myself because of my disease, while ignoring the fact that I am so fortunate to have found recovery. Sometimes I feel so poor, yet I live in a large home with a wonderful spouse and delightful pets. I have a car, and enough food to eat every day. I have the luxury of obtaining my degree. Most of all, though I often complain about how unfair it all is, I am even fortunate to have an eating disorder. Because it is through admitting I have a problem that I am beginning to taste recovery, and it is sweeter than any binge item. And it has taught me that it is through our adversities that we learn compassion and patience.

I have to realize that life just isn't fair. If it were, how boring it would be! Nothing worthwhile is easy to obtain, and that includes recovery. What would it be worth if there was no effort going into it? Sometimes bad things happen, and they are unfortunate. But that's the end of it. I cannot make things be the way I want them to be. I cannot change life. I must accept life on life's terms, and learn the art of patience, so well demonstrated by the above quote. How fortunate that I have the opportunity to learn these precious skills in the safety and security of my own home, with my wonderful friends, spouse, and my program family!

One Day at a Time . . .
I will avoid dwelling on the misery that accompanies hardship. I will develop the willingness to be grateful for the opportunity for me to learn compassion and patience.

Claire

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I have learned more from the adversity I've faced than from the good fortune, that's for sure.  When I face a tough situation & come through it intact, I grow as a human being.  If I shy away from challenge, I stagnate........I prevent myself from becoming all I am capable of being.

When I take the attitude that there are no coincidences & no 'mistakes' in my life..........that all events are given to me as blessings to learn from...........then I treat each challenge as a learning experience, rather than a reason to feel self-pity. 




Nothing worth having comes easy, as this reading says, and if it did, life would be boring.  If I am afraid to live TODAY, out of fear of what may happen TOMORROW, then I am preventing myself from experiencing the beauty of LIFE.  I am here on this earth to learn valuable lessons.  If I hide out and avoid learning those lessons, then I am shunning the whole purpose OF my life.

For today, I will accept whatever lessons are in store for me to learn.  I am willing to deal with ALL of life..........the good, the bad & the ugly.  There is something of value for me in EACH situation!