A Permanent Disability
Compulsive overeating is a permanent disability. We do not look forward to becoming normal eaters at some point in the future. Until we accept the fact that our illness is irreversible, we do not learn how to control it.
We have all tried innumerable methods of regaining the ability to eat normally and spontaneously. Perhaps the most common delusion was believing that once we were thin enough we would be able to eat whatever and however we pleased. We may have thought that if only we could straighten out our interpersonal relationships and arrange circumstances to suit us, then we would no longer be plagued by compulsive overeating.
When I accept the fact that I am and always will be a compulsive overeater, no matter what my weight or how ideal my situation, I accept reality. I will have to live with this disease and control it, with the help of my Higher Power and OA, for the rest of my life. Abstinence is not a temporary cure for my illness, but a permanent method of control.
May I understand the full extent of my disability.
From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations for Overeaters by Elisabeth L. ©1980, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation.
When we agree to live an abstinent lifestyle, we CREATE 'normal'..........we carve it out from the insanity of compulsive overeating, and that's how we live, one day at a time.
I accept the fact that I am and always will be a COE, no matter what my weight or how ideal my situation, I accept reality. I will have to live with this disease & control it, for the rest of my life, with the help of OA & my Higher Power.
The key is not to take that FIRST compulsive bite of food..........and to allow the Food Plant to prevail.
For today, I pray for the willingness to put my Food Plan & my HP in charge of my life
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