Recovery
Meditations: January 5th
PERSEVERANCE
“Consider it
all joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds,
because you
know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
Perseverance
must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete,
not lacking
anything.” . . . James 1:2
It’s always been easy for me to
feel sorry for myself. My life has been difficult since I was a very young
child, and early on I developed a chip on my shoulder the size of a boulder.
“Surely no one has ever suffered what I suffer,” I often told myself. I used my
pain and loneliness as excuses for bitterness, cynicism, arrogance, and
harshness. In a twisted manifestation of my sickness, I held onto my suffering
as though it were a precious testament to how “special” I was. I was actually
Proud of my hardships! By doing this, I was mocking James’ instruction to
consider trials of our faith as reasons to rejoice, and I was sentencing myself
to years of immaturity, lack of faith, conflict, resentment, and heartache.
Because I held onto my
arrogant, self-defeating attitude, the trials I faced led only to more and more
illnesses of my body, mind, soul, and spirit. I was a prisoner in my own mind –
ignoring the fact that I held in my hand the key to my freedom.
In the last six months I have
been hit with more profoundly chaotic, agonizing, destructive trials of faith
than I’ve encountered in the last ten years. The number, frequency, and
intensity of these events did what my rational mind could not do – they brought
me to my knees and led me to finally surrender my efforts to control my life.
I thank God for the friends
He’s given me in Recovery. Trusted Servants have prayed for me, listened to me,
and encouraged me. They have shared with me their own stories of suffering and
the growth they have gained through it. With God’s grace and the support of
dear friends, I am learning to release my twisted hold on Suffering, and to
instead cooperate with God’s work in me. As I focus my attention on the lessons
He has for me, I find that even the most painful trials I face can – and will –
produce perseverance and maturity, one day at a time.
One day at a time ... I will
choose to welcome the lessons and growth that God has for me – even when they
come disguised as horrific events in my life. I will choose perseverance over
bitterness.
~ Lisa
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Each Day a New Beginning
Instead of
concentrating on why we can't do a thing, we would be wise to change our
"Yes, but . . ." attitude to a more positive one. Saying "yes" means I
really do want to change my life for the better.
—Liane Cordes
We truly can do these things that are our "hearts' pure desires." However, most of us look at the whole task and feel overwhelmed. We need, instead, to look at the task's many parts. One part at a time, one day at a time, we can accomplish any goal we set for ourselves. I know a recovering woman who wrote a 300-page dissertation, the final achievement to obtain her PhD. When asked at a meeting how she ever did it, her reply was, "One word at a time." That's wonderful advice. No matter how many goals were missed or plans dashed when we were still using, now that we are recovering, each of us can do whatever is in our hearts - if we do it little by little, not all at once, today.
Today, I will do one small task that will contribute toward the achievement of a life goal.
—Liane Cordes
We truly can do these things that are our "hearts' pure desires." However, most of us look at the whole task and feel overwhelmed. We need, instead, to look at the task's many parts. One part at a time, one day at a time, we can accomplish any goal we set for ourselves. I know a recovering woman who wrote a 300-page dissertation, the final achievement to obtain her PhD. When asked at a meeting how she ever did it, her reply was, "One word at a time." That's wonderful advice. No matter how many goals were missed or plans dashed when we were still using, now that we are recovering, each of us can do whatever is in our hearts - if we do it little by little, not all at once, today.
Today, I will do one small task that will contribute toward the achievement of a life goal.
From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations for Women by Karen Casey
© 1982, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation.
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Food for Thought
Less Food, More Energy
When we have used excess food as a crutch for years, we think we need it to "keep up our energy." We have become especially dependent on the refined carbohydrates, sugar and flour, to give us a quick pickup when we are tired.
The truth of the matter is that the pickup, that sharp rise in blood sugar we got when we ate refined sugar and flour, was soon followed by an even sharper letdown. We ended up more tired than when we began! Excess food of any kind makes us groggy and lethargic.
When we eliminate the wrong kind of food and eat only the amount, which our bodies need for optimum functioning, we are amazed at the supply of energy we suddenly have. Jobs, which we have put off doing for years, begin to get done. We feel good. Instead of spending unnecessary time for extra eating and digesting, we have that time to use in productive, enjoyable activity.
Try it and see.
Lord, strengthen my body to serve You.
When we have used excess food as a crutch for years, we think we need it to "keep up our energy." We have become especially dependent on the refined carbohydrates, sugar and flour, to give us a quick pickup when we are tired.
The truth of the matter is that the pickup, that sharp rise in blood sugar we got when we ate refined sugar and flour, was soon followed by an even sharper letdown. We ended up more tired than when we began! Excess food of any kind makes us groggy and lethargic.
When we eliminate the wrong kind of food and eat only the amount, which our bodies need for optimum functioning, we are amazed at the supply of energy we suddenly have. Jobs, which we have put off doing for years, begin to get done. We feel good. Instead of spending unnecessary time for extra eating and digesting, we have that time to use in productive, enjoyable activity.
Try it and see.
Lord, strengthen my body to serve You.
From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations for Overeaters by Elisabeth L.
©1980, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation.
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The Language of Letting Go
Accepting Help
Some of us have felt so alienated that we've forgotten we're not alone. We've come to believe that we have to do it ourselves. Some of us have been abandoned. Some have gone without love. Some of us have gotten used to people never being there for us. Some of us have struggled, had hard lessons to learn.
God's there, always ready to help. There is an ample supply of people to care about us too. We will, if we want it, receive love and support, comfort and nurturing. If we take the risk to ask for it, help is there. We can draw on the strength of our recovery group and allow ourselves to be helped and supported by our Higher Power. Friends will come, good friends.
We aren't alone. And we don't have to do it ourselves. We're not doing it ourselves. There is no shortage of love. Not anymore.
Today, God, help me let go of my need to do it alone and my belief that I am alone. Help me tap into Your Divine Power and Presence, and your resources for love, support, and friendship. Open my eyes and heart so I can see the love, help, and support that's there for me. Help me know I am loved.
Some of us have felt so alienated that we've forgotten we're not alone. We've come to believe that we have to do it ourselves. Some of us have been abandoned. Some have gone without love. Some of us have gotten used to people never being there for us. Some of us have struggled, had hard lessons to learn.
God's there, always ready to help. There is an ample supply of people to care about us too. We will, if we want it, receive love and support, comfort and nurturing. If we take the risk to ask for it, help is there. We can draw on the strength of our recovery group and allow ourselves to be helped and supported by our Higher Power. Friends will come, good friends.
We aren't alone. And we don't have to do it ourselves. We're not doing it ourselves. There is no shortage of love. Not anymore.
Today, God, help me let go of my need to do it alone and my belief that I am alone. Help me tap into Your Divine Power and Presence, and your resources for love, support, and friendship. Open my eyes and heart so I can see the love, help, and support that's there for me. Help me know I am loved.
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie
©1990, Hazelden Foundation
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Let Go and Let God.
--Twelve Step slogan
Some days we might ask ourselves, Is it worth it? We feel alone. No one seems to care. Life seems hard. Recovery seems hard.
This is when we need to slow down and take a look at what's going on. We're feeling this way because we're off our recovery path. We may be back into wanting people to see things our way, or do things our way. We want control.
Remember, all problems are not our problems. All work is not our work. We can't have everything the way we want it. But we can do our part and let go of the rest. Then we can feel better.
Prayer for the Day
Higher Power, help me remember my only work today is to do Your will for me. It is not my job to be You.
Action for the Day
I'll talk with my sponsor or a program friend today. I'll talk about how to deal with things that seem to pull me down.
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