Just For Today: June 23rd

Surrender

“We didn’t stumble into this fellowship brimming with love, honesty, open-mindedness, or willingness….When we were beaten, we became willing.”
Basic Text, p. 20

Surrender may be the necessary foundation for recovery, but sometimes we fight it. Most of us look back after some clean time and wonder why on earth we fought so hard to deny our powerlessness when surrender is what finally saved our lives.

As we recover, new opportunities to surrender present themselves. We can either struggle with everyone and everything we encounter or we can recall the benefits of our first surrender and stop fighting.

Most of the pain we experience comes from fighting, not surrendering. In fact, when we surrender, the pain ends and hope takes its place. We begin to believe that all will be well and, after some time, realize that our lives are much better as a result. We feel the same way we did when we gave up the illusion that we could control our using-relieved, free, and filled with fresh hope.

Just for today: Is there a surrender I need to make today? I will remember my first surrender and remind myself that I don’t need to fight anymore.

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When I was brought to my knees for the millionth time because of alcohol & food abuse, I was at rock bottom.  After reading Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over alcohol (food) and our lives had become unmanageable, I cried with relief! There was someone who understood what I was feeling? That remarkable state of powerlessness, that no matter HOW much I drank or ate, it would never be enough?

Yes. There was, and still is, a whole group of people who understand ME, sometimes even better than I understand myself! They are located at AA meetings and OA meetings all over the world, and I thank God for the fellowship!

When I fight my disease & compulsions, I give them power.  When I surrender my disease & compulsions, I empower myself by allowing God to run my life instead of me. 

No amount of food or booze on earth is enough to fill the spiritual void that existed in me when I hit rock bottom.  One's too many & a million's not enough. 

Today, I love myself..........the part of me that is alcoholic, the part of me that is a compulsive overeater...........all of me.  I am a child of God and worthy of love & everything good life has to offer.

I  approve of and accept myself. Who I am is good enough. My best yesterday was good enough; my best today is plenty good too.

God, help me let go of the messages that drive me into the crazies. I will give myself permission to be who I am and let that be good enough.