For Today: September 15th

He that will not sail until all dangers are over, will never put to sea.
Thomas Fuller

Fear keeps me from reaching out.  There is always the danger of being rejected, and until such dangers are over, I can't risk it.

It is easy to think the world has rejected me but, as I look at past experiences with the honesty this program teaches, I see that it's the other way around: it is I who does the rejecting, in subtle ways, to be sure, but it is rejection nonetheless.  My disease is one of isolation, and closeness is the risk most feared.

Today, with the support of my fellow OAs, I do not need guarantees that I will be accepted every time I reach out.  I just go ahead and do it.

For Today:  I am ready to walk toward the world, to risk becoming a part of it.

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This quote reminds me of waiting for Monday to start another new diet.  So I could have the excuse of binging all weekend, in peace, in preparation for the restriction & misery of Monday.

I can't start a new diet during all these stressful events.......................
I can't quit smoking during all these stressful event.............

Blah blah blah.

When is a 'good' time to stop a bad habit? When will all the dangers be over with? Never, that's when.

When I reach out to others in this program, I realize I am not alone with my disease and distorted ways of looking at things. I don't have to isolate myself anymore out of fear............for today, I will open my arms to others & not worry about being rejected.