For Today: September 10th

Resolve to find thyself; and to know that he who finds himself loses his misery.
Matthew Arnold

As a child I had to hide from myself my own troubledness.  I needed to escape the seeming lack of love & inadequate nurturing of my small world. No matter how many people were around me, I was alone with my fears & anxieties.  Compulsive overeating & fantasy were my survival.

Today I am not alone.  With my fellow OAs, my Higher Power & my 12 step program of recovery, I can go back to look at that world-to explore feelings gently without judgment, & see truths revealed. I can look with love & understanding at the unattainably lofty ideals & expectations I carried into adulthood.

I no longer need the illusions of my childhood. As I give them up, I get in touch with myself & I live with a joy that is incomparable.

For Today:  I know & accept that who I am & what I have--my family, my friends, job, home--are exactly what I want for today.

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I know I developed compulsive overeating habits as a way to cope with my life while growing up. Although I no longer need those habits today, it can be quite tough to give them up. I drew comfort from escape --- until those habits turned against me.

The key to unlocking the addiction is to recognize it & to have a plan in place to deal with it: a food plan.

It\s taken me 1 hour to type this....my keyboard is going berserk. I will be back later with a new keyboard..............